shivered as Luke bit his ass and kissed up
his spine. This was not the man he’d been with six weeks ago. This was not the
unsure, diffident, scared guy who’d blown him off. This was a new Luke. A Luke
that knew exactly what he wanted and was determined
to get it.
As Tristan caught his
breath, his mind spun. He wanted him. His desire was almost painful to
process. The intensity of his yearning was terrifying, because in that moment
he wanted him forever.
Chapter Five
“This soup is terribl e,” Luke said, shoveling in another bite of the watered
down noodles.
Tristan smirked, a
soft crease around his eyes, and a devastatingly handsome quirk to his lips.
How had he resisted him for so long? Luke’s mind was still reeling from
watching him come apart beneath him, feeling him lose
himself under his touch. It was the most sensual moment of his life.
“What’s your favorite
food?” Tristan asked.
Luke tipped his head
in contemplation. “I love my mum’s chicken casserole.”
“How does she make
it?”
“I have no idea, but it’s like biting into heaven. You’ll have to
try it.”
Tristan’s expression
suddenly shifted from easy going to burdened. Quietly, he asked, “Will you tell
them? Your family?”
Luke stilled.
Absolutely not. He wasn’t ready to tell anyone. His d ecision
was pure instinct, but there was more to it. He wasn’t ready to share this part
of himself with anyone aside from Tristan. He wasn’t ready to share Tristan.
“Maybe in time.”
Tristan’s eyes moved
over him as if contemplating his answer. “Your family ’s
pretty liberal.”
“Yeah. But they’re
also Catholic.”
“Do they see
homosexuality as a sin?”
Homosexuality. For
some reason that label didn’t encompass what he felt about Tristan. It was
still sinking in and Luke wasn’t sure if he’d ever come to terms with that classification. “I don’t know. It isn’t something
that comes up often.”
Tristan pushed his
soup away. “When I was younger I always had this fantasy in my head that I’d
bring home a lover, maybe when I was older, perhaps coming home for
Thanksgiving o r some shit. He’d stay at my house and
together we’d tell my parents we were in love. They’d be shocked, my dad more
than my mom, but then they’d come around and we’d hug it out and eventually all
be sitting around watching reruns on late night television like the perfect modern family. I never got that. I
understand why certain things are private.”
“Do you ever talk to
them?”
“No. I send my mom a
card every Christmas. It’s generic and only has my name. But it tells her where
I’m living and that I’m alive. That seems to be
enough for her. She never writes back.”
“What did she do when
your dad caught you?”
“Cried. I wasn’t
hospitalized, but I was in bad shape. After that day, nothing was ever the
same. If I walked into a room, he walked out. I’d catch her wip ing her eyes and sometimes I told myself it was because she
hated her husband, but I was never sure if it was because she hated him for
what he’d done or me for what I was. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to ever
ask the truth.”
“There was a gay guy
in o ur high school,” Luke said quietly, remembering
what his team had done to him and how he laughed with the rest of them. It
wasn’t funny now. It stopped being funny the day they read the kid’s
obituary—at least for most of them.
“I’m not going to ask
you about that, because by the look in your eyes it
isn’t a memory you want to remember. People change, Luke. No one has the right
to throw the first stone because no one’s perfect and none of us even know what
perfect is. Society is the last measuring stick w e
should use. Just take a look at the horrid beliefs we’ve applied over history.”
He lost his appetite.
“Is this…are we a couple now?”
Tristan’s brow shot
up. “Uh, yeah.”
He nodded.
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