years as a high-powered, sharklike attorney, he was a sentimental man at heart. In spite of the fact that heâd suspected that something was troubling his daughter, he hadnât been properly prepared for her announcement and felt terribly stricken. He felt physically ill.
As was her habit, Julie tried to reassure and to comfort him, but this time it was to no real avail.
âThings will appear brighter in the morning, honey,â she said, stroking his cheek with her work-worn hand. âI promise you. They always do.â
Steve squeezed his wifeâs other hand and said good night. Within minutes he heard the slow and deep breathing that told him she was asleep.
He envied Julieâs ability to compartmentalize, to put aside a problem until morning, to be generally imperturbable. He envied her because he was so different. Steve was a brooder, and though he knew the futility of worry, he was a worrier. It wasnât the first night heâd lain awake for hours, futilely reviewing the past.
First, there had been the stunning news of Beccaâs pregnancy, and her refusal to have an abortion. Sheâd known she couldnât raise the child on her ownâthe idea was incomprehensible, terrifyingâbut she simply couldnât bear the idea of aborting the pregnancy. Of course, the family had respected her decision. Then, there had been the family meetings to discuss David and Naomiâs offer to raise the child as their own. Nora had been the strongest supporter of the plan. Then, there had been the phone calls. The delicate way Steve had tried to put the familyâs requests. The promises heâd made of future support and the assurances of the most sincere thanks. The lectures heâd listened to patiently from those reluctant to get involved in a scheme not entirely legal. Finally, there had been the financial arrangements. And it had all gone off without a hitch. It was a miracle, really. It was an incredible stroke of luck. It was an example of almost unbelievable good fortune.
But now the universe was seeking its payment. The universe in the form of the person he had most wanted to protect. Becca had become her own avenging angel.
Steve had truly thought he was acting on his daughterâs behalf, arranging the adoption that was not a legal adoption but, in reality, a subterfuge. Heâd thought he was acting unselfishly. But not for the first time he wondered if all along, there had been an element of self-preservation in his actions. Had he wanted to avoid the embarrassment of having a pregnant teenaged daughter in his home? Had he worried about his professional reputation, what his colleagues might think of him, what the other fathers he knew might say behind his back? Had he been ashamed of Becca? And had what heâd convinced himself to be a kind and humane act really only been the whitewashing of an unpleasant truth?
Steve sighed. Sometimes, he thought, even a well-meaning father just didnât know what was best for his family.
It wasnât until Henry Le Mew leapt up on the bed and curled at his feet that Steve finally slept.
14
The hardest part was over. At least, Becca hoped it was. Her intentions had been announced. If they hadnât been met with enthusiasm, well, it was only what she had expected. Maybe not quite as much anger, but shock, yes, surprise, and initial resistance. That was normal. No one really enjoyed sudden, dramatic change, no matter what they might claim.
While she undressed for bed, Becca reviewed details of the meeting. She saw her fatherâs look of disbelief. She recalled Oliviaâs hostility, a hostility that seemed general, not entirely directed at her sister. At one point David had looked apoplectic. James, her one hope, however dim, had been useless. And Naomi . . . Naomiâs evident sorrow had shaken Beccaâs confidence, though it had not weakened her resolve.
Becca lay down on the couch and pulled the blankets up
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