needed a friend more than you needed a lover. I was going to make a move when the time was right, but by then, you were enveloped by Maguire.” He sighs heavily.
I need to be closer to him. I need to, but I don’t make the move. I stay firmly planted, inches away from him.
“All those times you spent the night on my couch, you never once crossed the line.” I think back to all the times Noah could have at least hinted he had deeper feelings for me.
“It wasn’t like that. I think because we’ve been such good friends for so long, the physical attraction was there but more so, I loved being near you and a part of your life. You have no idea how many cold showers and thoughts about grannies I’ve had over the years. You’re beautiful inside and out, Tins. I couldn’t risk you not feeling the same way. I couldn’t risk losing you.”
I pull him into an embrace. His wonderful, manly scent fills my nostrils, and I’m at home. Noah is my home.
How in the hell I didn’t realize this sooner is beyond me. Noah and Liam were really a lot alike. Both too good for me, both looking out for what’s best for me out of love and affection.
“How long? How long have you thought about an … us?” I motion between us, and he smiles slyly.
“Too long for my own good. My poor girlfriends in the past had no chance. I tried to get you out of my head, I swear. But I always came back to you.” He leans in and kisses my forehead. A sweet gesture but not nearly enough for satisfy the craving.
Thoughts of him with other women make my blood curdle, but I know I have no bearing to be upset. Granted, I never wanted to imagine him balls deep in another chick.
“So you like what you see?” I put my hands on his chest as he devours me with his eyes. He nods and pulls me into a deep kiss that has me begging for more. I let out a quiet moan and he brings his finger up to my lips, breaking away from me.
Smiling wide, he shakes his head. “We’re not rushing this.” He gives me one more kiss and puts his hand on the door handle. “I’m going to hate myself later for being a gentleman, but I’ve promised myself that if I ever got this chance, I wouldn’t let myself think with my cock. Get dressed and we’ll go grab dinner.” He looks me over once more, bites his lip, and walks away.
I stare at the door, thoroughly confused at what just happened over the past five minutes and what a game changer this could be.
After getting dressed and checking out, we head out of the store with nothing for Maguire but a few more than intended pieces of lingerie.
The rest of the day goes smoothly. We grab dinner in a low-key restaurant. He holds my hand every chance he can, and I let him. I feel ecstatic, but there’s a cloud of doom trying to nudge its way over my head. I know I have to end things with Maguire before Noah and I can feel right.
Ugh.
I need to talk with Maguire, and I’m not looking forward to it. I’ve never been the one to dump the other. I’ve always been lucky, or not so lucky, to be the one who got the bad news. I care about him deeply, but not in the same way as I do Noah. Thinking about how Maguire’s going to take it, I can’t decide if he’ll be nonchalant or over-the-top pissed.
When did Christmas shopping turn into a life changing, behind closed doors conversation that is leading me to break up with a man who really could be good for me?
Noah kisses me good night after walking me to my door, and I can’t stop smiling. I feel blind and ridiculous that this didn’t happen sooner. His touches, though, light me on fire, and I can’t wait for more of Noah. He’s my new addiction.
I start with my normal routine of brushing my teeth and taking my makeup off. I slip into some jammies and just before I go to bed, I get a text. Staring at the phone, I debate whether to look at it.
Somehow, I know who it’s from, and I can’t help but feel guilty for my actions today.
Liam: Tinsley, there will be
I need to be closer to him. I need to, but I don’t make the move. I stay firmly planted, inches away from him.
“All those times you spent the night on my couch, you never once crossed the line.” I think back to all the times Noah could have at least hinted he had deeper feelings for me.
“It wasn’t like that. I think because we’ve been such good friends for so long, the physical attraction was there but more so, I loved being near you and a part of your life. You have no idea how many cold showers and thoughts about grannies I’ve had over the years. You’re beautiful inside and out, Tins. I couldn’t risk you not feeling the same way. I couldn’t risk losing you.”
I pull him into an embrace. His wonderful, manly scent fills my nostrils, and I’m at home. Noah is my home.
How in the hell I didn’t realize this sooner is beyond me. Noah and Liam were really a lot alike. Both too good for me, both looking out for what’s best for me out of love and affection.
“How long? How long have you thought about an … us?” I motion between us, and he smiles slyly.
“Too long for my own good. My poor girlfriends in the past had no chance. I tried to get you out of my head, I swear. But I always came back to you.” He leans in and kisses my forehead. A sweet gesture but not nearly enough for satisfy the craving.
Thoughts of him with other women make my blood curdle, but I know I have no bearing to be upset. Granted, I never wanted to imagine him balls deep in another chick.
“So you like what you see?” I put my hands on his chest as he devours me with his eyes. He nods and pulls me into a deep kiss that has me begging for more. I let out a quiet moan and he brings his finger up to my lips, breaking away from me.
Smiling wide, he shakes his head. “We’re not rushing this.” He gives me one more kiss and puts his hand on the door handle. “I’m going to hate myself later for being a gentleman, but I’ve promised myself that if I ever got this chance, I wouldn’t let myself think with my cock. Get dressed and we’ll go grab dinner.” He looks me over once more, bites his lip, and walks away.
I stare at the door, thoroughly confused at what just happened over the past five minutes and what a game changer this could be.
After getting dressed and checking out, we head out of the store with nothing for Maguire but a few more than intended pieces of lingerie.
The rest of the day goes smoothly. We grab dinner in a low-key restaurant. He holds my hand every chance he can, and I let him. I feel ecstatic, but there’s a cloud of doom trying to nudge its way over my head. I know I have to end things with Maguire before Noah and I can feel right.
Ugh.
I need to talk with Maguire, and I’m not looking forward to it. I’ve never been the one to dump the other. I’ve always been lucky, or not so lucky, to be the one who got the bad news. I care about him deeply, but not in the same way as I do Noah. Thinking about how Maguire’s going to take it, I can’t decide if he’ll be nonchalant or over-the-top pissed.
When did Christmas shopping turn into a life changing, behind closed doors conversation that is leading me to break up with a man who really could be good for me?
Noah kisses me good night after walking me to my door, and I can’t stop smiling. I feel blind and ridiculous that this didn’t happen sooner. His touches, though, light me on fire, and I can’t wait for more of Noah. He’s my new addiction.
I start with my normal routine of brushing my teeth and taking my makeup off. I slip into some jammies and just before I go to bed, I get a text. Staring at the phone, I debate whether to look at it.
Somehow, I know who it’s from, and I can’t help but feel guilty for my actions today.
Liam: Tinsley, there will be
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