meeting with the Red Swan and her face glows livid.
âYou stupid bitch! Why would you go looking into that?â
âDonât you want to know what happened to your father?â
âNo! I donât even remember him, and thatâs the way I like it.â
I notice that people are starting to pay attention to us, and thatâs never a good thing.
âLook at your life, Roxanne. Is this really what you want?â
âFuck you!â she explodes. âYou donât know me or what I want.â
âI can help,â I push. âI know some great people who can get you back on your feet.â
âYeah, yeah, and off my back. Iâve heard the sermons before, sister.â
âDamnit. Listen to me: youâre in danger here.â
âNo.â Roxanne shakes her head. âThe only one in danger here is you.â
I look beyond the ox and see the bouncer moving in toward us. I glance over my shoulder and see a second bouncer coming from behind the bar.
âPlease, Roxanne.â I hold out my hand. âJust come with me. Give me a day. Weâll see your sister.â
Roxanneâs eyes are hard and dry as millstone. âYou really think I have that choice?â she says. âDonât be so fucking naive.â
The first bouncer pushes past the ox, telling him to back off or take it upstairs, and advances on me.
All I have is my boot knife, Lily, but I know it wonât do me any good. A smart fighter knows when a brawl is lost before itâs even begun.
I raise my hands to show theyâre empty and that Iâm willing to go peacefully.
Thirteen
âThe exit is back that way,â I say as the two bouncers lead me in the opposite direction. âMy friend is waiting for me outside. Sheâll probably be getting worried. Wouldnât want her calling the cops simply because you have a lousy sense of direction, would you?â
âThereâs nobody waiting,â the first bouncer says. âThink we donât have eyes on the street?â
I try a different tactic: âSo are you two lovers?â I ask.
âFuck you, bitch!â
âKinda quick to anger there,â I press. âStrike a nerve? One-way love affair maybe? Heâs straight, youâreââ
I yelp as my arm is twisted behind my back and the bouncerâs thumb presses into the existing bruise on my wrist.
âYou donât have to hide your feelings with me, boys,â I groan. âIâm a live-and-let-live kinda gal.â
âShut your mouth,â the bouncer snaps.
At the end of a short, dilapidated hallway, we reach the rear of the hotel and a room labeled Storage . The first bouncer opens the door and flicks on the overhead light; the second one shoves me through the doorway.
The room is mostly old boxes, forgotten luggage, stained mattresses, and dusty stacks of wooden chairs. Iâm just happy that itâs not a torture chamber, complete with dentist chair and crazy Nazi with a drill à la Marathon Man , which I watched on Netflix last week.
âThis your secret love nest?â I sniff the air. âSmells like it.â
The lead bouncer shakes his massive head and I can see his muscles tense with rage. âThe bossâll want me to hurt you. I look forward to it.â
âDeny, deny, deny,â I fire back bravely. âItâll eat you up inside.â
The bouncer makes a move to rush me, but his partner holds him back, cluing me into the fact that theyâre not allowed to do anything until the boss shows.
They both retreat into the hall before slamming the door closed, leaving me alone inside the windowless room.
I allow a small smile to break through my secret terror, knowing that if I hadnât made them so angry, they mightâve engaged their brains and searched me. As it is, they couldnât wait to get out of earshot. Typical.
I touch the pearl-handled switchblade in my boot to