Vaniok. For an instant heâs even tempted to tell the man that he was raised Catholic though he hasnât been what anyone would regard as a good one for some years.
The priest, after gingerly testing the injured foot, says âI should probably give this ankle a little more rest. Thanks again. Iâm going to have to learn to ride a bike or give up on the damned thing. Oh, sorry,â he says. âBy the way, you donât have to be Catholic to come to the Center. Everybodyâs welcome. Not everything we do there is religious.â Then he smiles. âActually, Iâm still finding my way around. Like you, Iâm new here.â He laughs.
âYou sure youâre all right?â Vaniok insists and for answer the priest does a brief crippleâs dance: a couple of awkward half-steps that seem to verify that nothing is broken.
âA sprain,â the man declares. He shows no inclination to get back on the bike. âI think Iâll walk this back,â he says. âThanks for the help.â
âWash that elbow right away,â Vaniok urges.
âI will. And remember the Center. Donât worry, we donât have any bikes inside.â He extends his hand and Vaniok takes it. âRemember,â he says, âFather Tom.â
âSure thing,â Vaniok says, recognizing the seriousness beneath the manâs humor: if you have anything important you want to talk about, his eyes seem to say, Iâll listenâIâm not always crashing bikes. The man is a real priest, Vaniok realizes, and it makes him feel better.
Vaniok has always been drawn to priests. Not that he ever felt he had the vocation. But some of the strongest influences of his childhood were priests and among the numbers of them who were disappointments there were enough admirable men to make him respect the profession. Even these days heâs occasionally seized by the desire to be a better person than he has been, exactly the way he used to feel as a boy when he attended retreats given by Father Nicol, a thin, bald cleric with deep-set eyes. At those highly charged sessions Vaniok pledged that he would always try to be that better person and for all thatâs happened since, he can be overwhelmed at the unlikeliest times by that desire. Itâs his own secret that in the last election back home he voted for some minor candidates of the Spiritus party, commonly known as the priestsâ party, a fringe group that never held more than a few seats in the parliament because their ideas were hopelessly old-fashioned and unattainable, though their representatives could never be accused of corruption and worldliness. Possibly he was remembering Father Nicol.
Who knows, Vaniok thinks, maybe I will visit the Catholic Center.
The encounter has excited him. It pleases him to think the priest may even be newer to this town than he; it makes him feel like a native. Vaniok suddenly doesnât want to be by himself, he leaves the residential area for the main commercial street, busy with people at this hour, and instead of going directly home he walks to the old brick mill thatâs been converted to a shopping center. There he stops in the natural foods store and buys himself a roll and a cool drink. He smiles to the salesperson and takes his food to one of the outdoor tables where he sits and contentedly watches the homebound workers passing by. Heâs a man with resources, a man with friends. However minimal his help may have been today to the fallen priest, his help was offered and accepted. In the old days, he realizes, that would be exactly the kind of incident that would have revived his dream of being that better person.
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