my bed, then marches through the open French windows onto the balcony. He looks out over the campus.
‘You kept my flowers,’ he says.
‘ Yes ,’ I say, quietly , joining him . ‘They were beautiful. So was the card. ’
Marc nods, looking distracted. ‘ Something from a different time. When my i ntentions towards you were honourable. Believe me, Sophia, I had no idea when I sent those flowers ... I hate myself for feeling this way, but ... I want more. I need more. If you’ll give it to me.’
I feel that tug again. It’s so strong. Being with him is intoxicating.
‘Okay,’ I whisper .
‘ I want to know more about you,’ says Marc. ‘Have you had boyfriends before?’
I feel myself going red. ‘Of course.’
‘Tell me about them.’
‘Nothing big. Just a couple of boys at college and university . Nothing serious. Just, you know . Teenage stuff. I’ve been working too hard to have time for a social life.’
‘Di d you have sex with them ?’ Marc asks.
‘Yes ,’ I say , going redder . ‘One of them.’
‘What kind of sex?’
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I blush again. What kind of sex? ‘I don’t know,’ I say. ‘I suppose the usual kind. How many kinds are there?’
Marc’s lips tilt at the corners. ‘Lots and lots of kinds. You have to understand that with me, I need to do things a certain way. And I think you need things that way too. I think I can teach you a lot. In fact, I’m sure I can. Things you’ll like.’
‘ And what if I don’t agree to that ?’ I say, returning his quirky smile.
‘ For this to work, y ou have to accept that I’m the one in charge,’ says Marc. ‘ You need someone who knows what’s best for you, sexually and otherwise . I know your needs . More than you do, probably.’
‘I don’t know,’ I say, thinking back to that afternoon. It was probably the hottest few minutes of my whole life . The way he took charge of my body. I’ve never experienced anything l ike that before . I want it again.
‘I need you to make a decision ,’ says Marc . ‘You’ll either let me take charge of you in the way I want , or I guess I’ll just have to leave the university.’
‘We’ve been through this,’ I say. ‘You can’t leave. It wouldn’t be fair.’
‘That’s our situation, Sophia. I can’t stay here, not being able to touch you, to teach you and to discipline you in the way I want.’
‘Discipline me?’
Marc turns to me . ‘ Exactly right. If I take charge of you , I need to disc ipline you. If you step out of line , you’ll be punished.’
I swallow hard. ‘I’m not sure I like that idea.’
‘If you want hearts and flowers, walk away right now ,’ says Marc . ‘ You’re a beautiful, innocent you ng girl who any man would want. If I were you, I’d run a million mile s from a man like me. But I know I can give you what you need. What you’ve asked for. I know I can bring out of you so much more. T each you things you’ll like. Things no man has ever taught you before.’
‘So what do you mean by punishment?’
‘I need to be in control,’ says Marc . ‘That’s who I am. Which means if you step o ut of line, I have to discipline you . Maybe I’ll spank you. Maybe I’ll tie you up and fuck you until you can’t bear any more. It really depends how you step out of line.’
Oh my g od. I squeeze my knees together. How can I be turned on by what he just said? It’s so arrogant and cold. But my god, it’s so hot.
‘Come inside. It’s cold out here. ’ Marc strides into the bedroom . He pats the mattress beside him and I come and sit down.
H is nearness is doing things to me, and I put my head in my hands. This is too hard. I still don’t really u nderstand what he wants from me but , by the sounds of it, it’s some kinky, spanking type stuff that I am in no way ready for.
My heart beats hard in my chest, and tells me to run away. Fast.
‘I’m not ready,’ I say, ‘for what you’re talking about.’
He moves closer
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